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Surprise, it's October and far from goals

 I just read a Facebook post talking about emotions and the validity of what we're feeling.

Well, I have to admit I'm feeling a bit upset. At least the difference now is that, I'm acknowledging how I'm feeling, even just to myself (or even my confidant ;) ) , and actually even here! I haven't publicized this blog really so , it doesn't make so much sense that people would make anything of it.

I had a study plan rolled out at the start of the week, but things happened. Got a mix of good and bad news from work, so that kind of hampered my feeling of getting set for the PMP.

I have self doubts about taking the exam. Why? I'm feeling jaded about it, because what good will it bring me? I'm spending my own hard earned money just for it and for what? Will it make me a better worker? I'm not even sure. 

Why am I pursuing this again? Because I wanted some sense of achievement this year for the lack of doing something worth while in my life. 

Oh, I thought this blog was going to be about me being so positive about pushing for a goal, but it seems that I'm quite far from it.

Constraints for this project includes cost. I mean, why spend at least a month's salary (before taxes and deductions) if it doesn't really help you on anything? Does it feed my hunger for success or fulfilling something? Not really...

Or maybe having written all of this might be beneficial after all to give me that push to study and be better at things. 

Got teary eyed while I was writing this, now I think I might be motivated again to study for the PMP test.

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