Pushing for it: My journey towards PMP

It's quite hard to keep my momentum when I start to wake up and don't feel too motivated to do things. Perhaps I got too high last weekend given it was my birthday, but now I can't even have the strength to push to read either Rita's book or the PMBOK. When there's that loom of uncertainty, I feel like I have to push things aside and try to do a bit of self preservation. Now I'm starting to think whether studying for this is even worth it given the cost. I can feel that with the lessons I have taken so far, and reading the PMBOK gives some form of validation to the things I'm doing at work. Oh but gosh, should I still take this?

 It's the work week and I really have to start working. But here I am, on my bed, with my work laptop and writing on my blog, hahaha! Writing blogs have already gone "passe" (euh, comme passe compose? hahaha) as people started documenting their lives more using pictures or other shorter forms of media. But for me, well, it's only now that I'm starting to document what I feel, just like how project manager would do. Uhmm, but I guess not as an online diary? Hahaha! This would form part of my lessons learned later in life. Anyyway, I have been accused or called as an over-thinker. Maybe I really am, as I have so much time in my hands right now to just continually think about things as I don't have that much to talk to about what I feel. Like, for this PMP exam. Yesterday, I submitted my application to sit for the CAPM exam, and it immediately got accepted. I'm not sure if it's because I applied for the PMP and got approved to sit for the exam or...I don...

 I have decided to document my journey to becoming a PMP through this blog. It's only the first day of blogging and I already had three entries!  But the thing is, I'm starting to lose confidence in me taking the exam. Not because I'm thinking I can't do it, but thinking more if it's worth it. The fact that I am paying this out of of pocket, I'm just thinking if this would make me a better project manager. The cost is not a joke. I think becoming a member of PMI right now might be good though for me as I could resources in terms of managing my projects and all and I do think it is worth it...but taking the exam now? Hmmm, maybe not so much at this point. Unless of course I'm looking into finding a different job into project management, I think it would be a wise investment. But in reality? I just think this is like me pursuing a degree. Maybe I got hooked into that Tiktok song now that goes called "You Got It" and it has that line "go get that...

 Plan for the week: * Read the PMBOK under the PLANNING group and take notes * Do a baseline exam, research which good baseline to use. 

 I haven't  written in a while. Well, written in a blog at least. But I just wanted to document what I have been doing to push for this goal this year. Usually every year, for the lack of sense of accomplishment in my life, I would take an exam. It is my sort of "high" or sense of fulfillment in life. Kind of to fill a void that needs to be filled or whatever. This year, what I planned for was to do a language certification exam. To be exact, it is the A2 diploma for French. Last year, I got the A1 for both French and Spanish. But, covid 19 happened. And, we're all stuck at home since March. We're allowed to go out, but not as fully as we used to. So, even though I prepared for the exam for French (taking A2 for Spanish is realllly pushing it as I haven't practiced the language in ages)but, it looks like there would be no exam to be given this year. The exam consists of having an oral and written examination. So, I guess it's quite difficult to undertake i...